List for Life

Sometimes I just have to put myself to bed and hope for a better tomorrow. I can't go back. I can never go back and do things over. I can only move forward. Today was a day a failed experiments and I didn't learn much. Then I'm left with memories. Memories of how it used to be. The past is always real while the future seems uncertain. The only thing I can be sure of in the future is that I'm going to die. I may try to accomplish this or I can try to accomplish that, but for certain, I am going to die and sometimes it seems that I am racing to beat that clock. Racing to do all the things I want before death happens. Some call that the bucket list. I make one almost everyday, at the end of the day, for the next day, so I manage to get those three things done because I know I only have so much time and relaxing is not going to help me, but it's never an item I put on the list, because it's always something I am fighting not to do. It doesn't help me accomplish anything. This is where I'm wrong. I am becoming wrong. My thinking is strained. I've lost my path and I suppose that's okay. Routine is something you try to make, but life always gets in the way. How wonderful. So my list should look like this:
Live life
Relax
Enjoy your day