ALL BULLSHIT ALL THE TIME

Sweetheart. It's always the same story isn't it? You say, "Let me take care of you...", but what you really want is for me to take care of you while you avoid taking care of me. This is why I chose not to rely on anyone's help, if I can help it. Because it's always bullshit. Always.

Alfie Kohn - The Case Against Competition

The Lions in Rome

The suckiness that I have seen in my lifetime is pretty incredible. The trouble is, it's too common and either people ignore it, find something else to do to look away from it or blame it on someone else. That works out pretty good for those who are really in charge.

Where should I start this time...

Anywhere will do because almost any place I start leads me to a tale of woe, or whoa... A wise man once said, "This shit has got to go." I can surely second and third that.

Let's see...I spoke to my mother today and she hates to talk to me sometimes because it messes her life up and tears her up inside to know that one of her daughters is in so much pain and she cannot get to me. ALL part of the plan to divide and conquer though. People wait too long to do anything right, including me, so don't think I'm placing blame on her, whatever she thinks is right is right for her. Whatever you think is right is right for you and whatever I think is right is right for me. Right?

I thought it was right to leave my lying alcoholic boyfriend in the spring of 2008, because I saw the storm clouds coming and I thought, I must free myself from his fuckedupedness. He begged and pleaded with me, told me I was safe there. I laughed intill I cried. No one is safe, especially not with you, because you will drink your last dime and tell me everything is fine. And when it's all gone you will forget how to even smile. Believe me, I agonized about it for too long before I silently packed and planned my break out and went where ever the wind took me. Which wasn't far and into the hands of another alcoholic that had many of the same traits as he did.

Three o'clock, on the dot, open that bottle of booze and slap that grin on. Turn on the tellie and numb away the hours, repeating yourself over and over and over again. But, I wouldn't drink with her and play dress up, didn't follow along with the same politics. I spoke my mind once too many and soon she requested that I move. She made up some excuse, doesn't matter what it was, I knew it was because she decided she didn't like me. But, being a refugee is being ripe for the lions in Rome. You have no rights. You are worthless and deserve nothing because you do not have your own home.

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Mind Cracking

The vicious cycle keeps turning.

While I was a refugee in Chicago over the last winter, (it's a really long story) (remind me to tell it sometime) I was trying to crack through the brainwashed mind of my own son whom was not aware that international bankers controlled everything, from his immense stress over the debt of his college tuition to his worry over the drug addicted neighbor who he suspected was stealing his packages ordered from Amazon, to his father's home value being under water. I couldn't get him to listen or understand long enough. He just wanted to work his salary paid sixty hours a week while feeling insecure about losing it while he spent all of his free time collaborating with other creative artists on a web comic book. He just wanted to experience his new found freedom from parental controls.

Yeah. He has merged on from his parent controlled life to the invisible parents controlling his life out in the BIG world, and the entire time he thinks he has freedom to choose.

The Freedom of Choice

The freedom of choice. How sad that really is. People walking everywhere thinking they control their own thoughts, they control their own hearts and emotions, they control their own behavior without being adequately attuned to so many of the influences that surround them. (deep breath here)

What if science were to be the best decider, without a profit motive or need for money attached? What if science were to replace political debates? Would this really be replacing the human experience or spirit?

This is how I kind of imagine it would look. I am living in a fully equipped and environmentally safe structure and I am receiving the best medical advice from not doctors but my computer and suddenly an alert is displayed. It's not irritating, it's just a message. A severe weather warning. But, I don't have to run into a corner of the room or crouch inside a doorway, I just have to know why my apartment or housing structure is about to protect me by changing the window tint or locking up the open hatches by automatically closing them for me.

"Darn" I snap. "I wanted to go out and sit on the patio this morning." Damn, that scientific warning system from keeping me locked up inside. I could be out there getting battered by hail and thrown over by winds. This science is really getting on my nerves. "Oh well. I can't blame the weather. I guess I'll just go over to the image screen and turn on my choice of programming." And I decide to choose the image and sounds of the roaring fireplace. How quickly I can change my desires from warmth to warmth.

Is having the freedom to choose really the best thing for a person? That depends I suppose, on whom else or what else is helping me or influencing me to make my decisions.

A young girl is informed by her doctors (conveys what scientific tests reveal) that it will be a strain on her body if she carries her pregnancy full term. Her high blood pressure and diabetes could bring about her death during child birth (risk). But, she doesn't believe in abortion. She has been taught it is a sin to kill another human life while it is growing inside her (religion). She has already formed an attachment to the unborn child and would rather take her chances and give birth (unfounded).

Her parents want to save her, so they want her to make the safe choice, but she already made the unsafe choice by having sex without contraception. (religion and emotional influence from boy who wanted to have sex) Her own biological hormones influenced her to want to have sex also and is there a medication that numbs the body from wanting to have sex? Yes. It's your choice of anti-depressants.

Will science be allowed to make all human decisions in the future? Is that what is scaring the hell out of everyone who do not want to imagine what it would be like to get rid of ridiculous political banter and war creating border controls? Are you kidding me?

While money is the center point for border control and political parties and workers who want to work and the unemployed drug addict who can't work but needs money to sustain a drug habit and the wealth behind drug lords and the banker's bullet, what is the difference between choosing science for social concern with monetary backing and science for social concern without monetary backing?

Give me a few minutes and not only will I crack your noggin, I will scramble your brains. MMMMM. I'm feeling hungry.

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